And that ladies and gentlemen sums up my life.
- Fuck Israel
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- The Clearing, Heather Davis
Quitting Codeine is the hardest thing I’ve ever chosen to do.
It’s like breaking up with the love of your life, that person who makes you feel on top of the world. The one who makes you forget about your problems. Because when you’re with her, nothing else exists.
Except that, when you break up with someone, chances of getting back together are scarce.
With Codeine, I can always go back.
Those moments at night when your heart is breaking and you just want to talk to her but you can’t, that doesn’t happen. Because I can. I can get in my car and make my way, blindfolded, to the dealer’s house.
Codeine will always be there at my lowest.
There’s no escape.
And as I write this, I mourn the loss I choose to lose. A sorrow so deep in my heart. The love that eased away the pain for a whole 2 years.
And I can’t quite comprehend whether it is the loss of morphine I am crying over, or the loss of my own self.
- 365 Days of Haiku, Day #123